I need my friends.

I know it. I need my friends. For accountability, for a break from the monotony, for someone to laugh with, smile with, cry with... Even more than ever I realize it now. Now, when I feel like so many of them have drifted away... when I feel a chasm between me and the rest of the world. I know that it is largely imagined, but it feels real to my heart.

I was driving along today and I heard "There is a Way" playing. The part that keeps replaying in my mind says:

What if love became a man
if the word had flesh and bones
Would you recognize His face
if He came to bring you home
You think you're all alone
gotta do it on your own
riding solo....

At first I thought I was being prompted to lean on my girlfriends more. To turn to them, to continue to nurture those relationships. To draw them close and stop "riding solo" so much. And that is true, I KNOW that I need to do that, to be intentional about keeping those friendships in place and healthy. But as much as I need my friends, the message is clear to me now. The rest of the song clearly talks about The Way... The Truth... The Life. The One who has been there all along, waiting for me, yearning for me to turn to Him. Like I've had to learn over and over... He is the only One who will bring fullness. He is the lifeline, come to the rescue, and all I need to do is reach for Him. Lord, continue to turn my heart to You alone, to remind me of the truth that You alone will satisfy, and You alone will never fail, and that only in You will I have an ever present hope.