Every day

So I have really grown a lot over the past few years. The whole motherhood thing has shaken up my life and rearranged my perspective. God has used it, and many other things in my life, to help me really see some truths that I had been ignoring for so long. I have healed, I have grown, I have learned, I have cried, I have rejoiced. And it is barely getting started. I know so well now that God is molding and shaping me every day into what He wants in me. And some of the lessons are hard, some are recurrent, some are painful, but some are beautiful. Like this one.

You see, I've always known that when things got rough I should get on my knees. It is easy to need God and reach out to Him in the trials and the heartaches of life. That part I got many years ago. But what God had to reveal to me in a joyful little "ah-ha!" recently was that I need Him every day! And not only do I need Him, but He is right there with me, an ever present friend, all day, every day. Now don't get me wrong. I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior and knew all along that He was living in me. I kinda got that whole thing. But I never got the closeness, the comraderie, the every day deep seated very real need to have an intimacy and dialogue with Him every step of the way.

Maybe I'm not really doing this justice because it seemed so clear and so exciting when God revealed it to me, but as I type it just seems like 'duh!' But it is amazing to me to live my every day knowing that God loves me, that He is watching my every move, that I can turn to Him with a whisper or a shout, a song or a cry, and that He is right there ready to pick me up and dance me around the room. Isn't that amazing?! This big, awesome God doesn't wait until we're in crisis to check on us. He doesn't get too busy with other things to look down on us. He takes time to enjoy our happy days as well as our sad ones, our busy days and our lazy days, our ups and our downs. He's right there. He wants to be my best friend, and yours.

I need Him, every day, every step, every moment, every milestone. And He meets me right where I am. How awesome is that?!